Where are we headed? Where are we going? And what does it mean "to go back"?
These are the questions I was contemplating as I sat in Yonkers, only days after leaving Panama, on my way to Hastings-on-Hudson to visit friend, mentor and past boss, Seth Godin.
At the time, I had just gotten back from Panama and was contemplating living outside of NYC. Thus, I rented an Airbnb in Yonkers for a few days to see what the outskirts of the Big Apple felt like and hence, the concept of "returning" and what that truly means in the context of being present.
One of the most profound and sticky lessons that I've taken from working with Seth is the importance of trust in all that we do.
It's trust that brings people in and out of our lives. It's trust that keeps people around for the long haul and as he states here, it's that which "allows me to do the next project".Read More
Panama City, Panama 2015
There's no where in the world that I'd rather be than traveling, meeting amazing people and enjoying delicious food.
This is part 2 of my journey from Panama City to NYC. To combine them felt way too long so I opted to cut it into 2 parts. Maybe we even create more suspense that way. :)
Biggest take away, for me, throughout the entire video? The smile on my face in the first 4 seconds. That kind of joy you just can't fake.
As I watch it, I feel envious of that moment. Funny thing, to be envious of yourself, no? How does that even work?Read More
Panama City, 2015
I don't know that I fully could appreciate, previous to this 30 days of #dailyreflections vlogging adventure, the amount of love and labor that it takes to pull this all together.
I am already in love with the output.
I love that I'm able to reflect, document and share these amazing experiences with people from all over the world in such an open, transparent and ideally entertaining way.
It takes me anywhere from 2-4 hours a day to put a video together, from editing to YouTube to this here blog. I've been saying forever that I want this to be my life. I keep repeating over and over "artist and teacher".
As of right now, I'm living the dream. I'm in Montreal, Canada with gorgeous weather and the relaxation and joy that comes from creating these mini stories. This video in particular is part one of my adventure leaving Panama City and heading to New York. Tomorrow you'll get to see the 2nd half.Read More
So much of my life I don't regret, even the craziest of happenings. But on occasion, even if it's rare, I step into situations, particularly with people, that I wish I hadn't. The sunk cost of energy, time and what feels like poor human conduct leaves a deep wound and scar.
Is there someone in your life that you wish you never met? Or was there a time when you felt that way, but maybe your sentiments changed? I'd love to here more about your personal experience. For me, people have been a favorite hiding spot of mine on the journey of purpose and art.
I love helping people and devoting myself almost unconditionally. But when the relationship is toxic and draining, it ends up taking from you in ways that are hard to replenish.Read More
I'm not sure why it is that the work we feel drawn to yields so much resistance. It seems that we think the things we love most are the most impossible and pointless to pursue.
For the next few weeks, the videos will be retroactive and not totally in accordance with where I'm currently located. I'm playing catch up. For example. this video says that I'm in Panama and well, I'm actually in Montreal! That being said, I should probably talk a bit more about what this whole video things is...
After having chatted with a new friend in Panama (hi Stuart!) and rediscovering Casey Neistat, I felt compelled to bite the bullet and just dive into shooting without much of an idea as to what the final product would look like.
For me, diving into the path of the artist and really committing to blogging has been the product of ghost roads and phantom futures being burnt to the ground in the past year. If you've followed any of the my blog or Instagram over the past 6 months, I talk very openly about the state I was in after some major loss. I'm flattered in some ways by the Universe's insistence that I stand in my true power.Read More
As I get ready to fly back to NY, I'm already feeling fear set in. I want these good feelings and blazing insights from my past month or so in Europe to ride on.
I remember the state I was in upon leaving and I don't want to go back to that place.
Flash back to San Francisco, close-up of me, on my bedroom floor.
Full on grief had set in. It was as if I was facing everything I lost only a few months earlier plus the "new" stuff too.
My grandma passing.
My dog, Luna, being really ill.
The end of my 8 year relationship, business and home in NYC.
Now boyfriend number two wanted space (and lots of it) and I was let go from my job.
I was in a state of complete shock.Read More
I didn't know what to expect coming to Europe but more than anything, I knew I wanted/needed to shed a heavy heart.
The best part of this trip, though? The journey isn't over.
Upon moving to San Francisco a year ago, without fully realizing it, I stopped nourishing myself. For almost an entire year, I was starving myself of creativity, physical movement, sacred spaces and deep, healthy connections.
Gifting myself a trip throughout Europe has begun to turn that around for me and fast. I'm learning to lead with what I love and need, and discovering through much trial and error. Below are some of my key lessons thus far.Read More