There is a real pain that comes with stretching yourself, looking into the places that scare you most and bringing light with each step, each breath. Where reality meets desire and goals meet current circumstances and the pain lays in the disconnect from where you want to be and where you are.
Sometimes it's hard to see "who we are".
Sometimes it's easier to hide. But the ease of hiding grows more difficult the longer hiding prolongs itself.
In short, embrace your circumstance and let your highest-expressed self be your goal.