Episode 1: I woke up like this (and the fear of being seen)

I'm not sure why it is that the work we feel drawn to yields so much resistance. It seems that we think the things we love most are the most impossible and pointless to pursue.

Why?

For the next few weeks, the videos will be retroactive and not totally in accordance with where I'm currently located. I'm playing catch up. For example. this video says that I'm in Panama and well, I'm actually in Montreal! That being said, I should probably talk a bit more about what this whole video things is...

After having chatted with a new friend in Panama (hi Stuart!) and rediscovering Casey Neistat, I felt compelled to bite the bullet and just dive into shooting without much of an idea as to what the final product would look like.

For me, diving into the path of the artist and really committing to blogging has been the product of ghost roads and phantom futures being burnt to the ground in the past year. If you've followed any of the my blog or Instagram over the past 6 months, I talk very openly about the state I was in after some major loss. I'm flattered in some ways by the Universe's insistence that I stand in my true power.

For the next 30 days, I'll be posting a new video Monday through Friday. I'm calling it #dailyreflections.

I share this hashtag with Alcoholics Anonymous.

Perfect.

I find it unsurprising in fact. I have had many people in my life that struggle with addiction. Maybe this will help inspire them too.

The idea for #dailyreflections is to capture soundbites throughout my days in an interesting and inspiring way. I want to capture the magic that floats around me as well as the wisdom in a real way.

I may bring out characters like Juanita or make more documentary style work.

No idea. And that's the beauty of it.

It's also a challenge for me to grow and test out this medium I have had a long-distance love affair with for so long. To train myself to deliver content in a new way.

I love inspiring you guys as best as I can, to share my ups and downs and for you to see what the journey looks like from the inside out, as authentically as possible.

In this video, I had decided only a day or two earlier to begin playing around with vlogging in Casco Viejo, Panama City. I was wrangling with a lot of resistance to even shooting the video. I had also received a lame email from people that drain me energetically, so I wasn't 100% in Panama mentally and emotionally.

But I did it anyways. And you can too.

p.s. If I don't know you or we've never spoken, say hello in the comments. I'd love to meet you.

Cheers!