Are you secretly mad at someone in your life?

Montreal, Quebec 2015

I didn't realize that tension in your esophagus could lead to stomach aches and back pain. I didn't realize that we can hold pain in our bodies not only for ourselves, but for others as well. And I didn't realize that Montreal, Quebec was so beautiful in the Fall until I saw it with my own two eyes.

Sometimes, it seems, we don't truly understand something until we live the experience firsthand (tweet it!). Afterwards, it almost seems absurd that we didn't forsee what was to happen.

Or that we didn't somehow strategize around the catastrophic event before us.

 

For 5 days I did a juice cleanse and only drank fruit and veggie juices to give my stomach a much needed break. Pre-cleanse, my back went out and up until today, I had been in a lot of pain.

The doctor said I hadn't shared something powerful with a particular person. The tension and emotion behind those words lived, bottled up in my neck, causing a ruckus in the rest of my body.

This came as somewhat of a surprise to me, because I feel quite vocal most days.

But maybe we aren't equally as vocal with everyone. Maybe we tailor our words and actions, even in the slightest of ways, based on who we're talking to.

I suppose there's always room for deeper self-expression. And as I learned over the past few weeks, swallowed words can lead to massive amounts of pain and discomfort down the road.

And isn't that the irony? Avoid pain in the short term only to face it again, potentially, for the long term.

I'm curious: what's eating you? Where in your life are you silent and how is that impacting your body?